Thursday, November 17

So Close

I just spoke to the doctor. Apparently, someone delivered today which opened up an earlier spot for us tomorrow! We will now have babies in less than 24 hours! How can I even explain what's going through my head right now?

So much anxiety, fear, anticipation, restlessness...I can't even compartmentalize all of the emotions. My legs kind of went numb just thinking about it. Preparation for the spinal, I'd imagine.

I've spent the morning double checking my mental to-do lists to frantically resolve anything I could have possibly forgotten. The video camera is charging as we speak, the hospital bag is ready to go, I'm drinking water like crazy and notifying family of the changes. I guess this is prepared as one can feel when you're about to take on the responsibility of two fragile little lives.

This past week has been the most miserable. Even sitting is now unbearable because everything squishes up into my ribcage and I can't catch my breath. Standing is equally as uncomfortable because the extra weight makes my legs and feet sore and they tingle from lack of circulation and swelling. Laying down causes its own problems such as heartburn and an aching belly. All I can say is, the last week of pregnancy has to be natures way of preparing women to finally say, ENOUGH - give me the pains of labor, just get these things out of me!

I was able to get a few last minute projects wrapped up earlier this week. I finished the cupcake stand for my baby shower next weekend, completed the thank you gift I've been working on for my sister-in-law who is throwing the shower and made the matching name sign for the nursery - although I didn't get them hung up yet. I guess I'll keep that on the to-do list a while longer.

I'm now laying in bed trying to find any comfort I can. I have a feeling tonight is going to be a restless night, much like the last few nights only magnified. I'll try to nap if I can, if nothing else just to make the time pass by more quickly.

I've come to terms with the c-section. We did confirm last night the babies still haven't flipped, no big surprise there. The doctor said they look to be good sized. He thinks baby B is around 6 or so pounds and baby A is a little smaller, probably around 5. That is a whole lotta baby up in there! No wonder my ribs feel like they are cracking!

We asked a lot of questions about the process and what to expect. It sounds like it should be a pretty smooth experience and should be over relatively quickly. There will be around 12 people in the room, possibly even more because of the fact there are twins. That's a whole lotta lack of privacy. I guess it won't be my lady magic out and about at least.

Well, I'm not sure when my next post will be. Hopefully I'll be able to do a quick recap before I forget all the details. Wish me luck! The next time you hear from me, I'll be a momma to two twin boys!


Heidi said...

wow! Good luck with everything!!!

Raquel said...

Aaaahhhhhh!! I'm so excited for you! Reading this just makes me that much more anxious to meet my baby girl :) You will be a great momma and I can't wait to see pictures of your babies! Good luck! I know everything will go just fine. Now I am getting antsy trying to make sure I have everything I need, but alas, I have more time lol. Try to rest as much as you can, although, I probably wouldn't get much sleep either if I knew my baby was coming the next day :)

The Lane Family said...

This is so exciting...soon not only will your heart be full but your arms will as well. Best of Luck!!!!!

evanskl4 said...

Elisa - I just read your post in babycenter. I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine the emotional rollercoaster you must be on.
My thoughts and prayers are with you, your husband, and Charie.